Because many of you have asked, emailed and called me to ask the question "Where have you been?", I thought it was high time to provide an answer. I have known for a while that my life had become complete chaos, but chose to muddle through it all and convince myself that I was doing the right thing. Until recently, I realized that I was not doing much of anything, except running in circles. Todd and I are both very laid back, unorganized, messy and fly-by-the-seat of your pants type people. While this may seem fun, it sure does make it hard to run a household and raise kids. Anyone that knows me can tell you that I really do try to keep it all together, but somehow I have over scheduled everyone and we get caught under a tornado of swirling debris. I listened when my pastor spoke on listing the 5 most important things in your life on one side of the paper and listing the 5 things that take your time on the left side... strangely enough these sides should match. Mine did not, nor do they now, but I am getting closer. Many times in the past 5 years, I am reminded of what is important in life. I know that there are no do-overs in this parenting journey, so I need to get it right this time.
So.... I quit! Yes, I quit everything that I did not HAVE to do. It was hard and I have had many comments from people, but I did it! The girls have begun to cut out things and we have re-arranged our schedules to work a little better. Life is more calm in the Young household. I am beginning to see what a gift my family is and realize that I need to take care of them FIRST and not way down the line. Life is precious and short and I know that I will never erase all regret, but I can do better.
Well, this happened 2 months ago and while life still gets crazy, I am a happier Mom and my family is in a good place. I am not trying to be rude if I do not answer calls or emails as quickly, but I am trying to devote my energy to Todd and the girls while they are here. There is seldom a time that a phone call could be more important than a shared memory between my kids. They grow up too quickly. Today is a gift and tomorrow is uncertain. Hopefully if I die tomorrow, I will be content knowing that I did the best that I could do.
My New Year's resolutions are to honor God, cherish my family and get organized (I know that most of you are dying laughing about now). Both Todd and I have missed our workouts for the past months, but it was one of the things that had to go for then. However, now is the time to get back in the gym...my last resolution. What are your resolutions?
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
New Year's Resolutions
Posted by Carman at 6:52 PM
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3 comments:
Oh wow, maybe I should take some advice from you? LOL...I'm trying desperately to organize myself before school and work starts up for everyone next week and things get completely crazy again. I've lived in a pool of stress for months now, and it cannot continue. My goals are to exercise daily (since exercise makes a great stress reliever--and happy people!), to go to bed earlier, and to make better memories with my kids. Good Luck with yours!
God bless you, Carman, as you prioritize everything. I can SO identify with your struggle. I'm right there with you, sister! Our girls are growing up so fast...Calie is 16, 11th grade! And my 'baby' is 14...my friends have girls in college & it's flying by so fast. I pray that God will always be #1 and our husbands & children #2, devoting the huge majority of our time to them. You are truly blessed! Love you.
Way to go Carman! You are awesome and so is your family! Blessings to you all!
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